Sometimes I think life is like a computer game. By the time I figure out how to play one level, the game changes and becomes difficult.
The biggest stress right now is getting admission into a school for my little girl. I get out most mornings, do the rounds of schools and come back with nothing. It takes me a while to shake the dejection and dive into work. In the meanwhile, chores happen, a little homeschooling happens and meals get prepared.
My practice is very basic, repetitions of what is done in class. While in tadasana, I am aware of the check points. The moment it changes into another asana like urdhva hastasana or uthita trikonasana, I lose that awareness and start again from the feet.
My life situation is similar to this state. One variable changes and I lose the samasthithi in my life and have to work upwards slowly. It is slow work and I struggle some days. On one hand I can see the human drama while on the other, I am in the thick of it.
Tadasana is a good way to come back to the fullness of now, an ideal of equanimity.
anonymous sadhaka 